Job, part 18

Employment, self.

With all the unsettledness and turmoil around, with all the ambiguity of my new role, with the unclarity and lack of clear direction on what I am expected to do, it has become difficult at times to focus on daily tasks. With no clear responsibility for product release, many times I am just puzzled what to do next, and I end up sometimes doing very little.

This situation is extremely draining and demoralizing. (Sometimes I wonder if that's the plan; namely to whittle some of us down.)

I have come to listing daily what I do work on in a notebook. While normally I keep a notebook at work as a place-keeper for facts I would need to remember: decisions we are told about, telephone numbers, part numbers, dates for expected events, etc., in recent months it has become more about listing the tasks I do everyday, as a reminder in the potential situation I am asked what I did recently. Sad, isn't it.

So, in all, there have been times at the end of the day, when I wonder what I did accomplish that day. I knew I was being and doing, but what was accomplished?

Thinking this thorough, since I find myself in this situation, also known as 'circling the drain', I realize I must change something if I want different results.

So I came to realize I need to find things I want to accomplish, and list them, and then start accomplishing them. What better way to feel like I am accomplishing something useful every day than if I accomplish something everyday I determined was useful. And list those things in a notebook as I work on them and as I complete them.

Since I am still employed, what better way items to include on that list but skills that I would want to have should I need to look for work.

So I have begun to rescue myself.

(Continued.)